after 1 year 9 months.

3.03am.

*deep breath*

i am newly single :)

i don't owe anyone an explanation or anything but this blog holds many of oliver and my memories so maybe this entry can sorta of wrap things up nicely.

we're still friends and we have a lot of respect for each other :)

but the transition from someone whom i can call anytime for no reason at all to just a mere hibye friend is always hard and not something i can get used to.

we had lunch the last weekend and it was as though nothing had changed between us, conversation flowed and laughter was aplenty - no awkward silences.

he even playfully piped up: "i don't think i can ever find someone who's as retarded as you."

the difficult part was that i had to consciously remind myself to not touch his hand or kiss him on the cheek like i normally would because normal friends don't do that.

we were supposed to talk about what happened but seeing how carefree things were, i felt no reason at all to bring up whatever happened in the past because look at us, we are doing great as friends.

there was no need for justification of actions because it simply didn't matter anymore and i'm not about to mess this friendship up.

if you're wondering how i'm doing, i'm really fine :)

it i'm not i wouldn't be acknowledging the topic and writing this here.

it hurts but somethings, i need to let go and move on.

3.38am, bedtime.

numbered thoughts.

numero uno,

went to dymocks, out of stock.
went to david jones, completely sold out.
went to kmart, don't have anymore copies.

so when the lady at target told me they just received a new batch, i wanted to hug her out of joy wtf.

i spent a good 5 minutes caressing the paperback, smelling and flipping through the pages.
y'know doing things u won't be able to do with a kindle wtf.

2.

i was in a rush this morning for fear of being late to a test so i hastily slipped on my boat shoes but not without noticing a dark, wet patch at the toe section.
thinking it was water, i didn't care much for it but it when my toes slipped in, it kicked into something really wet and solid so i thought it was a branch or a leaf or something.

took it off, gave it a good shake and didn't care for much when nothing happened so i put it back on again but just as i was slipping my foot in, A FROG HOPPED OUT!!!!!!!!!!


A FROG!!!!!!!!! :O :O :O :O :O
T________________T

i wanted to cry wtf because the sensation of it WAS JUST SO FUCKING GROSS i really feel like puking just recalling the whole experience.
my foot felt super violated and dirty after coming into contact with a soft, squishy, wet frog.
had to take 3 seconds (cos rushing ma wtf) to regain my composure and all my courage to slip my foot back into the shoe T_________________T

no really, i don't think you'd understand how i feel unless you've touched a cold blooded amphibian before.
COLD WET SQUISHY AMPHIBIAN.

*cries*

3.

speaking of rush.
i have 3 watches and clocks from my laptop and my BB so that gives me 5 different sources of time telling.
my watches are set at least 10 minutes ahead of the normal time wtf? so it always gives me a sense of urgency cos i don't like being late to classes etc.
i realised that my silver watch is set like HALF an hour ahead of time that everytime i'm wearing that watch, i'm always early.

4.



gold watch + gold skull bracelet.
my fav combo :D

5.

i did the wrong set of tutorial questions  *stabs self*

haiyah i got nothing to say la i just want to shower and start reading wtf.
have a good weekend lovers!
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congraduations, fussier eater and eye sex.

i was honestly super excited to go for yesterday's graduation ceremony (or rather, post ceremony for canapes and drinks) because it's always, always, fun to see familiar faces again after so long.

congraduations my love(s)!

i was wearing my JC litas and got an unbelievable amount of shocked expressions the entire night!
they are about 5 or 5.5 inches but they are seriously the most comfy pair of heels ever although it sure didn't look like it.
i could run, jump and hop in them but everyone was just...lost for words. hahaha.

i was practically looking down at sophia and fellow vertically challenged friends. LOL.
sophia: babi. so tall for what *examines the height of my heels when i stuck my leg up*
B: where got. ok nia.
sophia: like wearing a ruler.

she also bellowed to her mum who was busy with the canapes (hahaha) to come over to where we were so that i could meet her properly:
sophia: ma, zhe ge shi babi.
sophia's mum: hi babi. ni shi babi A or babi B?
b: hi babi mummy! :D wo shi babi A la, wo ken ding yao di yi de.

her mum is super cool and funny! :D
she was holding sophia's bouquet of flowers for her the entire time but she unceremoniously chucked it back to her and ran away because she was asked to be in a photo, leaving sophia's hand filled with a wine glass, graduation certificates and the flowers.

actually i realised that i speak to sophia mostly in mandarin and english, the occasional malay and sometimes cantonese when we're talking about tvb dramas.
so muhibbah right! :D
i also realised i never call her 'sophia' before, much preferring to go with 'babi' (our affectionate term for each other wtf) or deng ting yi, which is her name in chinese.

LOL.

anyway, i can't help but to associate the whole thing with hogwarts wtf.
castle like buildings, check.
graduation robes with green lining (for the science faculty) resembling the slytherin house, check.
luminous black pond, check.

spent the rest of the night jump hugging people that i bumped into eg gareth, chiaming etc.

we were in a group when a couple of us had to leave so hugs were all around when lily suddenly turned to me with her arms wide open.

B: what are you doing?

she had a frozen look on her face and gave the unclaimed hug to someone else instead.
jer saw the whole thing and laughed.

today, lily (jokingly) whatsapped me saying: "sorry for the attempt to hug you yesterday. i dunno what i was thinking?"

hahahaha. we give hugs to everyone but when it comes down to jer, lily and i, we show affection by addressing each other with a "HARROW AH STUPIK!!"

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convo with lily on whatsapp today:
"i don't eat risotto right?"
"errr i think u do?" *thinking why the fuck she asking me whether she likes it or not -__-*
"i mean u. hahaha" *her typing skills on her touch screen phone is nonexistent, i told her it's like using a wingdings font on the computer since it's barely understandable*
"no i don't like risotto."
"yeah i figured. so funny wan wor, u eat porridge but not risotto."
"it's different! u can't put century eggs in risotto can you."
"so you only eat century egg porridge but u don't eat the century egg in that."
"ah shaddap."
"you felt it didn't you, how stupid that sounds! haha burn!"
"this is blog worthy, watch out for my comeback!"

actually i don't like risotto because of it's texture la, not really a century egg issue haha.
risotto is so thick, gloopy and looks like baby food/ someone just threw up on a plate; porridge can be made into a more watery consistency depending on your tastebuds like how i like mine more watery and the grains to be completely dissolved.
y' know less puke looking and all.

there are quite a lot of caveats in the list of food i don't like to eat - beef is a good example.
i generally don't like beef: i don't like minced beef in bolognaise/ chilli con carne, i don't like steaks at all, same goes for stroganoff, stew, stir fry and tartare.
BUT there are some exceptions la and this only makes me more difficult than i already am wtf.
i love beef burger patties which are processed to oblivion anyway so i guess it's not quite beef wtf and my absolute favourite has got to be thinly sliced wagyu beef in steamboats.
beef ball noodles in soup are fine too but i only eat the noodles & sometimes the beef balls which are probably super processed anyway. hahaha.

i also fucking can't stand cheese but cheap mozarella on pizza, mascarpone in tiramisu and the occasional cream cheese bagel with salmon - that's all fine.
i ordered mozarella bruschetta once, thinking malaysian restaurants confirm use crap quality one (hence, no smell) so i'm sure i'll eat it.
the minute it was served and before putting two and two together, i swear i thought either somebody farted or took their shoes off and darted glances around to see if anybody else noticed.

as it turned out they used good quality cheese and i really wanted to vomit right there and then when my share was placed right in front of me.
even brother wong couldn't stomach the stench and we had to give our slices to the parentals, who for a moment, i'm sure couldn't believe we were their children because they are big time foodies and they thrive on good quality stuff - unlike their daughter who likes to eat processed food wtf.

so cheddar, feta, goat's, pecorino, ricotta, cottage, blue and the worst, parmesan, no exceptions - i hate all of them.
the smell of ALL cheese make my insides twist and turn, this i am not exaggerating.

another thing i absolutely cannot stand (no caveats) is lamb.
i don't know how people can get past the smell!
apparently the proper term is 'gamey' but dear god it smells like rotten carcass to me wtf.
i would hands down, rather smell formaldehyde preserved dead bodies.

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this week has been a crazy week of assignments submission but nothing too major.
i had a 1k word essay given in the first week of uni and it was due in week 4 (current week) so i started in week 3 :D
i have done 3k, 5k and even a 10k words for a group proposal so 1k is just...a nuisance but hey, it does account for 10%.

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leftover party photos awhile back from magalee!




could do with a whiskey coke right about now...

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i woke up yesterday morning with a full blown case of hayfever; my eyes were watery and swollen and the sneezing fits just wouldn't stop -__-"
when i came back home, i knew i had some heyfever meds somewhere since i'm so prone to it and found 4 tablets (given by an ex in a care package along with gastric and headache meds, aww :) thanks kiat!)
thank goodness it wasn't the drowsy kind else i would have missed out on the graduation ceremony passed out at home.

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eye sex is fucking awesome (haha, pun!)

eye sex is defined as "meeting eyes with someone (usually a stranger) and holding their gaze for longer than what would be considered a glance. it gives the impression that there is possible chemistry and possible connection between two people."

can't put it better myself.
bonus points for seriously sexy eyes on a seriously sexy stranger.

the multiple prolonged glances followed by a cheeky smile is so captivating ;)

this may or may not have happened to me but mmmm i love eye sex.

disclaimer: i don't anyhow go and eyesex people wan ok! the attraction must be there for both parties for it to all begin ;)

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looking forward to some sangria tomorrow!
have an amazing weekend guys!


graduation photos are from bowie; party photos are from magalee - ripped off facebook!

this and that.

brenda | jervynna | liwei

getting our asses kicked at a quiz night but we won 16 bottles of wine! :)

photo of the year TM.

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current playlist:

- unintended ; muse.

- wedding dress ; ben rector.

- encoded ; hardwell.

- welcome to ibiza - dj tiesto.

- mission impossible theme - dj tiesto.

hardwell is definitely an upcoming headliner ;)

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le thoughts in the morning, in chronological order right after i open my eyes, or try to anyway:

- FUCK YOU ALARM FUCK YOU.

- do i really have to go to class - in which case everyday is always a resounding YES. why the fuck did i put plan for all my compulsory classes to be in the morning is way beyond me.

- one day closer to europe!!! :D :D :D :D

but i am a bit the fail because i can never remember the complete list of places we'll be going to and it's not as exciting to only mention the cliched places like paris, london, italy etc despite going over the itinerary many times!

so here it is la har once and for all!

england (london)

monaco

france (paris, beaujolais wine region, cote de azur)

spain (barcelona, madrid)

italy (venice, florence, rome)

greece!!!! (athens, santorini, mykonos, preveza)

albania (durres)

croatia (dubrovnik, zadar)

slovenia (ljublana)

austria (vienna, austrian tyrol)

germany (munich)

switzerland (swiss alps)

liechtenschtein wtf so cbf double checking the spelling (rhine valley)

netherlands (amsterdam)

vatican city

we'll also be transitting in bosnia, montenegro and belgium (waffles! chocolate!)

i really want to check out ibiza (spain) and san tropez (french riviera, france) and depending on time/money, we even might squeeze czech republic in too :3

whoa somehow seeing all the countries i'm going to in it's broken down glory is a little overwhelming but so exciting at the same time! :D :D :D
the thing i'm most excited for is the AUTHENTIC LOCAL FOOD! :D :D :D :D
(also, their beaches and men wtf eh imma be there for 40+ days! girl needs her eye candy)
hell, i'll even eat a bratwurst despite my hatred for all things innards (hence sausages) just for the bragging rights wtf.
laduree macaroons, champ elysees restaurants, paella, tzatziki, sangria, pasta, french desserts and mediterranean food (ultimate fav cos it's herby + not creamy) omg JUST TAKE ME THERE NOW.

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i went for a medical check up a couple of days ago and everything is a-okay! *touch wood wtf*

my examining doctor was about 60+ years old or so and it was terribly awkward (on my part) when he told me to look straight ahead while he peered into my eyes.

we were only 2cm apart wtf.

my blood pressure is slightly lower than normal but nothing to worry about ^^

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i have come to realise that i am motherfucking grumpy in the morning especially more so during the weekdays of school weeks.

the whole thing is intensified when i'm made to talk to someone who's chirpy and ready for the world wtf let me be sulky at 8am can!?

no one (really, just me) likes to be awake before 11am!

another thing i really cannot stand is people pacing back and forth when they're waiting for something like the bus or a class to start.

it drives me absolutely crazy seeing them entering and exiting my field of vision a hundred times over.

so irrational but it's so annoying -__-"

dear god i am one impatient little bitch.

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whoa super long entry!

signing off for californication season 2 :D

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photo dump monday #2

celebrated luis's 22nd birthday in style ie right in front of a garage because burgermeister has a retarded policy of not allowing cake cutting.
yeah see i don't know how that works because it totally doesn't make sense -__-"



loving the cheery colors :)



i think if my mug says i am, then i must be... :D



possibly one of my favourite humanities unit ever but dear god it is so confusing that i am just baffled at how intricate philosophy is.
the lecture is a standard 45 minutes session but half the time is taken up by:
- questions from students.
- students trying to formulate a question that makes sense because it's pretty hard to get your point across in philosophy.
- lecturer trying to understand what the hell is everyone asking.

so far, lecture has never ended on time wtf.

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whiskey coke.
blood orange and apple vodkas.
pictionary.
indian poker (MY FAV DRINKING GAME! cos it's so mindless hahaha).
french girls maga lee & liza.
italian matt.
kenny, lily, jer and mahself.

tons of fun but no hangover. oh yeah bitches.

CHAMPION.

either my hands are really shaky (i highly doubt so) or people just need to stop moving when i'm taking photos.














matt picked a card and got the word 'monday' that he needed to draw out for his team mates and u know what he drew?

seven vertical lines.
he kept jabbing the pen at the first line and looked up at everyone else with an exasperated expression probably thinking IS THIS NOT OBVIOUS ENOUGH!!!
hahaha.

we were lolling on the grass in the backyard when jer nonchalantly announced: "i think i need to puke."

right after she finished her sentence, she proceeded to throw up watery puke into the bush.

LOL. never a dull time with these people i swear.

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cottlesloe beach.
sculptures on the sea (that i cbf taking photos of because the sand was burning my feet and i refused to walk).
magalee, liza, lily and moi :)







managed to spot a couple of dolphins later in the afternoon :)

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needa do some work now so abrupt end wtf.

glorious thursday.

my thursday rocked because...

- ...i was wearing the standard sundress + new sandals that matched my bag wtf. der always gives me shit for being superficial (think picking up running because of my new adidas) but hey, i think if you look good, you'll feel good too! 

- ...my tutorial was amazing :) there were no smart alecks, overly opinionated people who are not open minded and everyone was just easygoing. there's this girl in one of my tutes and she just would not shut up - which was bearable really but when you want (in this case, force) others to listen to your opinions, then respect others and be open minded about theirs. the lecturer had to interrupt her because i was meant to talk. bitch.

- ...i had a coffee date with der after class and we amused ourselves in a shop on hampden rd that sells novelty stuff. der's eyes almost fell off his socket when he realised einstein magnets costs $40. haha.

- ...i had lunch with der, paul, chloe, audrey and siti! they are retarded. haha.

- ...der and i managed to properly catch up over coffee + lunch, then we got back to my place and we watched 2 episodes of homeland.

- ...aunty a made some pretty flippin' kick ass vegetable curry, quite possibly one of the best i've ever had.

- ...i was craving mickey dees THE WHOLE WEEK and was tempted to get some right after dinner (my apetite scares me sometimes) but i practiced some self restraint. so difficult, but no saturated fats for me! :D

cannot wait for the weekend so take a breather from uni.
happy weekend if you're reading!

photo dump monday #1.

yes, monday shall be ritualistic, photo dump days! :D

claisebrook cove, east perth.
hands down, my favourite suburb in perth.
freo comes in a close second followed by subi and south perth tied in third wtf like competition haha.



bacon drizzled with maple syrup (it is damn good despite it sounding really gross) with to die for corn fritters.



toast | east perth.
t'was one of my favourite breakfasts ever but by the end of it i was so sick of maple syrup cos it went everywhere; on the eggs even and that was a bit yuck.
i'm a bit anal about sauces/gravy/dressings touching other food when it's not meant too or rather, when i don't want it to.

which reminds me.
dad, mama and i were at nirwana @ bangsar for banana leaf rice and i separated my rice into two parts so that the curry won't touch the other curry wtf; one for chicken curry and one for fish curry.
i gave the waiter specific instructions to not mix them together, much to his amusement.

my dad on the other hand would have 3 types of curry all mashed together -___-"
how to taste what is what!



le potluck at uncle b's house.
despite the variety of food brought by other people, the brother, boyfriend and i have concluded that my aunty is STILL the best cook.
everything she makes confirm tasty wan.
der brought 2 bottles of wine and we both got apple strudel from corica which is still as good as before but damn the price hike :(



making use of my good hair day! :D

running report!

 when i was in KL for the summer holidays, i ate and drank so much, more so the week leading up to chinese new year that i eventually fell really sick.
i got the whole shebang (fever, chills, motherflippin' WORST headache EVER, sore throat, muscle aches, cough) and thought, if this amount of eating/drinking made me sick, it has definitely made me gained weight -__-" if that makes sense wtf. it does la ok.

anyway, i die die want to maintain my 50kgs so i panicked and bought a pair of running shoes, giving myself the ultimatum - run, or else you'll waste mama's money wtf.

when i got back to perth, i loudly declared to der: "BABY. I AM GOING TO START RUNNING."
without missing a beat, he scoffed at me and said: "but you hate running."

yes, i fucking hate running with a vengeance but i already buy new shoes so cannot waste money wtf.

i want to like running because runners are so cool - they are so in the zone with their rhythm and music and run past you while you walk, leaving a trail of awesomeness behind them indirectly going I HAVE A KILLER STAMINA BITCH.

i also want a killer stamina :( but i am so severely anaemic it's not even funny.
long story short, i found out i was deficient in haemoglobin when i went to donate blood and was told that i myself needed a blood transfusion.
want to give blood but found out i needed someone else's blood wtf FAIL.

so i decided to take it easy, pace myself and build up my rhythm steadily over the weeks.
i googled how to start running and found a general running plan for beginners because i didn't wanna overwhelm my body and pass out the first time.
which, if you know me, is totally possible.

yesterday, i skipped around the house wearing my new shoes and kept asking uncle b: "my new shoes nice or not!! NICEORNOT NICEORNOT NICEORNOT?? i'm going jogging in a while!" :D :D :D :D
uncle b: "you're going jogging because u have new shoes?" -__-"

well. yes but that's not the point wtf.

my running plan is (or was, rather) "a brisk 5 minute walk, alternate 60 seconds of jogging and 90 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes"
then i realised it was ridiculously tedious to keep up with the time and decided to just try my best la.

i briskwalked (80%) / ran (20%) for 40 minutes ^^"
i would have ran more but the pain from a variety of sources was too much to bear -___-"

came home to:
- side stitches (it started 2 minutes after i started running and is still going strong right now).
- cuts on my ankle from the first time breaking my new shoes in.
- bum/leg muscle aches (good pains so i don't really care for it).
- toe cramps (so weird but not a big deal).

the one thing that really gets to me is the grazes from the shoes.



it looks harmless & my threshold for pain is not that pathetic but man, when these comes into contact with ANYTHING especially hot water, it really fucking stings.
i was hopping around in the shower trying to minimize the contact with water. ouch.



the motivation slash culprit.
i love love LOVE the neon bits :*)



i didn't match my bra strap with my shoes la ok -__-"
the only good thing post running is the natural blush on mah face :D

googled why i got toe cramps - found out it was from overexertion of muscles and/or nutritional issues but i think it's from me, unknowingly gripping the sole my shoes with my toes -__-"
side stitches result from weak core muscles or dehydration; in my case it's probs both wtf.
also found out i forgot to warm up, stretch and cool down. haiyo brenda wong.

ok i'm bored of typing so here is the abrupt ending wtf.