if it's still on your mind, it's worth taking the risk.

piercing #3 and #4, not counting previously closed holes which resulted from a moment of spontaneity, momentary fear & shuffling back and forth between should-i-go-for-it & i'll-sleep-on-it-again.

well, the former won. obviously.

see, if i wanna do something and it pops into mind like that *snaps*, chances are it won't ever get out unless i get it done.

i cannot be tempted with pain because the urge to feel it first hand is almost, always too overwhelming.

cases in point, this is piercing number 7 and 8, if counting the previous holes that i let close by itself for school reasons.

piercings #5 and #6 were at positioned at a slightly risky area of the ear where veins and nerve endings meet but i had to know how it felt like even though i had it pierced during a 2 week school holiday break, knowing fully it would never heal on time for school - so i took it out.

i felt a little heavy hearted but satisfied knowing that the pain is bearable.

before i got my second tattoo, i trawled on every online forum with the heading "the most painful spot to get a tattoo" out of curiousity and 98% decided unanimously it was the rib (the other 2% was a tie between the pelvic bone and feet, i think).

this is where the disclaimer comes in to say that both events happened at a very different timeframe and are mutually exclusive, until a couple of months later when i finally decided on my design.

i wanted it to be well hidden from sight and preferably directly on a bone so that if/when i gain weight, it wouldn't stretch out (true story).

more online forum trawling later, i decided to go with the rib despite objections from my tattoo artist - he told me a grown man chickened out from shading/coloring and only managed to forcibly sat through the tattoo outline due to the pain but of course, my tattoo is tiny & simplistic compared to his one.

i won't lie and say it didn't hurt because it did, especially during the first two minutes and i even forgot to breath on a couple of occasions that irwin actually had to go: "eh breath ah!"

it was definitely well worth it :)

then a couple of months back, i read somewhere that a shot fired from a shotgun will result in a recoil so strong that it feels like your arm is being jerked off.

i watched a couple of youtube videos and it got me really really curious that i got really excited when a bunch of friends (organized by JA, might i add. can u tell that i'm desperate wtf) planned to go to a shooting range soon :D

but alas, the plan did not happen but it definitely will.

x

that was all about my twisted mind and obsession with feeling superficial pain because i love the self satisfaction that comes after - just because i want something so bad, i can't get it out of my mind.

here's to hoping that what i have in mind for next time materializes just the same way; out of stubbornness, preservation and knowing that it's always worth it at the end.

"if it's still in your mind, it's worth taking the risk."

- paulo coelho

have a great week lovelies.

best dream ever.

"means you want me to marry you lah?"

:D :D :D :D :D :D

*dives into bed*

rain on me.

while walking to the biochem lab with chloe:

chloe: i asked paul if we could be partners in the lab and he said i'll do something about it IF you can get brenda to like biochem.

b: he seriously said that?????!!!!!!

chloe: YEAH! and i was like hmmm that's okay then because that is impossible.

b: hahahahahaha.

today in the lab tutorial after everyone left and i was asked to stay back to do a quiz -__-"

b: paul. i LOVE biochem :D :D :D :D *fake smile plastered on face* really! i do!

paul: ................................okay nice try. *clearly forgotten about his deal with chloe*

b: so you gonna let me partner chloe? :D :D :D :D :D *fake smile still plastered on face*

paul: OHHHHH. i seeeeeeeeeeeee....

b: *fake smile plastered on face*

paul: ...........................i'll do something about it.

b: REALLY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? *in obvious shock because i literally just SAID i love biochem without meaning it*

paul: yeah? but you have to promise me u two won't cause trouble.

b: OF COURSE!!!! but aren't the lablists fixed by now?

paul: meh. i'll do something about it.

quiz time:

b: paul, are you sure there are no trick questions in here?

paul: yeah. sure of it.

b: hmmm okay.

10 minutes later.

paul: how u going?

b: are you sure there are no trick questions!

paul: lemme see.

b: for question 1, i'm sure it's B because it says so in the lecture notes (it was an open book test) but for question tw-

paul: hang on, B is not right. read again.

b: IMPOSSIBLE!!!!! you see you see *shoves lecture notes in his face* it says most chromatography beads are made of sugars!

paul: mmm that's true. but D is the correct answer.

b: BUT IT SAYS B IS THE RIGHT ANSWER. ACCORDING TO THE LECTURE NOTES!!!

paul: that is true but that is not always the case!!! just put D you crazy clown.

B: TRICK QUESTION! imma put a star next to it so that u'll give me a mark for it.

questions 2 and 4 are equally vague and confusing -___-"

b: i'm putting a star next to questions 2 and 4 as well so i'm expecting at least 3 out of 4 right for this quiz mmkay?

paul: *laughs* your face is a star.

where to find lab coordinator like that i ask you.

he is probably regretting that promise he made with chloe and i because of course we gon' cause trouble what is he thinking -___-"

>:)

#cryptic

somewhat new boat shoes from topshop :)

i wore them immediately after i got them and to uni at that on a sunday because i wanted to wear them so badly that any location wouldn't matter.

the pain started to kick in on the day itself but i ignored it until i reached home and realized that there was cuts and blood even transferred from my feet to the back of the shoes.

i thought, new shoes need to soften up so that they're less stiff and if i just wear them a couple more times, they'd eventually stop hurting.

the next time i wore them, i stuck bandaids at the back of my feet so it'd hurt less and to protect the old cuts - it worked but i still flinched occasionally when the pain penetrated the thin fabric of the bandaid and rubbed against the raw wound.

next 5 times or so with the bandaid, the pain decreased slowly but surely and today, i wore them out with no pain at all.

x

i guess what i'm trying to say is that with you, there is just no more hurt or pain left to be felt.

xx

deux.

147 slides for fingerprint sciences.

*faints*

X

YOU.

are amazing! :)

doofie.

sayang him tons because

- ...he was tired but still, drove from south to north just to drop me home and had to drive back alone.

- ...he gets angry when guys take a glance too long at me (a friend apparently, was looking at my legs for quite awhile before der had to personally walk up to him and distract him).

B: u should be happy though! everyone can look but only u can touch ;)

der: still. i don't like them doing it when you're clearly with me.

- ...i like watching telly with him when he's lying on my chest.

- ...he does the dishes :D

M W A H baby.

drink a little more than u should tonight.

in the lab, in the midst of waiting for 15 minute mark incubation period:

gareth: *skips over to my table/jaw drops* OMG BRENDA WONG. the computer font looks messy next to your writing!

phoebe: brenda. seriously, you have a problem. NO ONE NORMAL, has handwriting like that!

x

in the car:

B: baby, i don't wanna call you baby anymore.

der: what why!

B: because x calls y sweetheart!!! and baby is so.....boring.
der: u call me whatever you want baby.

*pause*

der: actually i should call u doofus. because u call me doofie. like tigress, lioness...?

today again, in the car:

B: i dunno what to call u. call u oliver? (for the record, i only call him by his name in uni/in presence of other friends so as to not gross you all out but habit takes over sometimes).

der: don't be such a faggotface! *flails arms/body around, throwing a tantrum*

x

this morning while hugging me:

der: hi my tiny girl.

B: me? tiny?

der: look at this frame! *shakes my shoulders*

B: i feel disgusting :(

....period, u have your ways of making me feel worse than crap.

x

in the biochem lab:

B: what's an effluent?

paul: the effluent, is the stuff in the measuring cylinder *gestures*.

B: oh what, this shit in here?

*ppl around me laughs*

paul: EFFLUENT!

paul gives me extra attention in the lab because:

- i'm a paranoid bitch; i'm normally quite calm in labs and have a rough idea of what's going on but biochem always have its' way of doing my head in. simple steps are actually, not that simple.

- we are fb friends? hahaha.

- i am der's girlfriend -___________-"

while everyone was getting their materials from the middle table, paul said out loudly to me:

"BRENDA!"

*everyone around central table stops what they're doing and looks at me*

"....................................yes paul?" *squeaks*

"TELL KRISTY WHO YOUR BOYFRIEND IS!"

fucker.

x

bloated, tired and cranky :(

hot shower and an early night shall commence.

canine affection.

little bruce, en route to a grooming session!

doggie is obviously not very photogenic but he makes my heart turn into mush when i look at his cheeky face.

bruce is EXTREMELY naughty; he yanks rubbish out of the dustbin and drags it all over the house, as with underwear, socks and even a snowcap beanie thing to the front gate and sits there while gnawing on them.

when reprimanded though, he'll look up with EPIC puppy dog eyes and we'll all scoop him up for cuddles because seriously, how can anyone be mad at that face?

i miss seeing his tail wag and his jumps and leaps when he sees us coming home,

how he follows mummy wherever she goes and waits patiently outside the bathroom door when she takes a shower,

how he curls himself up on his little cushion to sleep at night (cushion used to be my bantal busuk btw nyehehe),

and how he jumps up to my bed and lick my face to wake me up whenever mum wants me up haha.

sigh i miss that cheeky little thing :*(

LOLOLOLOL.

creationism - the belief that a magical man up in the clouds created the universe 10000 years ago in 7 days and then just for fun decided to scatter a load of fossils all around.

hahahahaha.

credits to 9gag.com.

don't be trollin' ;)

supervillain.

check them pearly whites out!

my current fb dp and BB wallpaper.

matching asymmetrical hemmed dress.

we both didn't mind wearing the same dress but she changed later into smtg more comfy.

x

on the phone with der:

der: herrow. got home safe? *referring to bus-sing it myself since i had classes til 7.30pm*

B: nope. i'm held hostage by a kidnapper. he wants a ransom.

der: how much?

B: 50 million dollars.

der: what? 2 dollars u mean?

B: -___-" 50 million!

der: he lets u use your phone?

B: he's holding it to my ear!
der: riiiiiiiiiiight.

i have to mix it up a little because i'm always 'fine' or 'bored' when he asks me how am i, despite just seeing me like a couple of hours ago.

but he very layan also hoh.

*sayang*

i was chilling on his bed reading when he casually gave me paper bag :D :D :D :D

not just any paper bag but a dark blue and white paper bag with ribbons!

charm #4 :)

and a laughing angry bird!

(as in, u press the body then got sound wan!)

we have this mutual understanding that if we came back from a holiday, i would get him a pair of cufflinks and he would buy me a charm from TS.

but 2 pairs of cufflinks, a necklace and a charm bracelet later, we both admitted that we need to be more creative in giving gifts, especially me!

he has given me really good presents that mean something AND are useful at the same time so i really need to up my game (T^T)

but stress ah.

x

there's this guy in the lab whom i can't fucking stand any longer.

i have tried to put up with him over and over again for 3 semesters now because we have the same group of mutual friends so have to give face right but today.

GOD, TODAY. he brought hate to an entirely new level.

for conveniences' sake, he shall now be known as JA (which is hell appropriate because it's short for JACK ASS).

in the lab, we are all in groups of three and sharing equipment/machinery with other groups are fairly common, usually 2, sometimes 4 groups to 1 equipment.

today was one of the rare times that the whole class had to work around 1 degas/vacuum machine, which means that there would definitely be a bottleneck because the machine can only fit 5 or 6 flasks in one sitting.

say, if you took a little longer going through the procedures, you'd have to wait until the 5 flasks are out (15mins) and wait for other slowpokes so that it eventually reaches 5 or 6 flasks.

my shit was in it along with other 4 flasks, so the machine was switched on and was to be left UNDISTURBED for 15 minutes.

JA trotted to the machine and shook the equipment and i'm like wtf? what is he trying to do?

JA: how long more will it take?

B: another 10 mins or so, probs. not longer than that.

JA: *continuously shakes the thing because it wouldn't open*

B: ....maybe you should stop doing that otherwise airbubbles will form (sole purpose of the machine is to REMOVE ANY of them air bubbles).

JA: i just need to get mine in *shakes again and attempts to switch it off*

B: talk to melissa, don't do it yourself.

by then, he actually switched the vacuum off and tried opening the lid but it wouldn't budge because of the pressure difference.

so he had to wait and the demonstrator told him off :)

there are 5 groups' materials in there and he wanted to stop it just so he could get his in.

how selfish can he be?

by shaking the machine, air bubbles will form and right from the start of the lab, we were warned that it would jeopardize our results and we would have to start over if bubbles were present.

>:o(

scenario 2, one group to one flask:

his lab partner accidentally dropped his pipette tip into the flask (which is such a teeny weeny tiny problem and can be rectified in 5 seconds compared to the magnitude of the problem above) (dunno if it even qualifies as a problem actually wtf) and JA went:
"HAIYOH OMG!!! JUST GIVE ME JUST GIVE ME." in a very tantrum throwing, irritated demeanor and promptly went to snatch it off him.

who likes to work with lab partners like that?

so unbelievably rude and obnoxious.

scenario 3:

he fucked up (HAH!) and needed a new conical flask so he took ders' groups' one without telling them and leaving der to ask the demonstrator and having to answer questions like:

"you should have one!"

"are you sure it's not on the bench?"

"it can't be!"

overall, he's condescending, selfish, FUCKING RUDE and has really retarded social skills bordering non existent.

b: i am STILL annoyed at JA.

der: i know you've never liked him.

b: true but seeing him today, just his presence pisses me off.

congratulations JA, keep it up and you'll be pissing everyone off in due time.

honestly, you're not far from that.

x

wow that was lengthy and therapeutic :)

it's almost 2am and i definitely need sleep before tmr's lab so B, signing out.