if it's still on your mind, it's worth taking the risk.

piercing #3 and #4, not counting previously closed holes which resulted from a moment of spontaneity, momentary fear & shuffling back and forth between should-i-go-for-it & i'll-sleep-on-it-again.

well, the former won. obviously.

see, if i wanna do something and it pops into mind like that *snaps*, chances are it won't ever get out unless i get it done.

i cannot be tempted with pain because the urge to feel it first hand is almost, always too overwhelming.

cases in point, this is piercing number 7 and 8, if counting the previous holes that i let close by itself for school reasons.

piercings #5 and #6 were at positioned at a slightly risky area of the ear where veins and nerve endings meet but i had to know how it felt like even though i had it pierced during a 2 week school holiday break, knowing fully it would never heal on time for school - so i took it out.

i felt a little heavy hearted but satisfied knowing that the pain is bearable.

before i got my second tattoo, i trawled on every online forum with the heading "the most painful spot to get a tattoo" out of curiousity and 98% decided unanimously it was the rib (the other 2% was a tie between the pelvic bone and feet, i think).

this is where the disclaimer comes in to say that both events happened at a very different timeframe and are mutually exclusive, until a couple of months later when i finally decided on my design.

i wanted it to be well hidden from sight and preferably directly on a bone so that if/when i gain weight, it wouldn't stretch out (true story).

more online forum trawling later, i decided to go with the rib despite objections from my tattoo artist - he told me a grown man chickened out from shading/coloring and only managed to forcibly sat through the tattoo outline due to the pain but of course, my tattoo is tiny & simplistic compared to his one.

i won't lie and say it didn't hurt because it did, especially during the first two minutes and i even forgot to breath on a couple of occasions that irwin actually had to go: "eh breath ah!"

it was definitely well worth it :)

then a couple of months back, i read somewhere that a shot fired from a shotgun will result in a recoil so strong that it feels like your arm is being jerked off.

i watched a couple of youtube videos and it got me really really curious that i got really excited when a bunch of friends (organized by JA, might i add. can u tell that i'm desperate wtf) planned to go to a shooting range soon :D

but alas, the plan did not happen but it definitely will.

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that was all about my twisted mind and obsession with feeling superficial pain because i love the self satisfaction that comes after - just because i want something so bad, i can't get it out of my mind.

here's to hoping that what i have in mind for next time materializes just the same way; out of stubbornness, preservation and knowing that it's always worth it at the end.

"if it's still in your mind, it's worth taking the risk."

- paulo coelho

have a great week lovelies.