*deep breath*
i am newly single :)
i don't owe anyone an explanation or anything but this blog holds many of oliver and my memories so maybe this entry can sorta of wrap things up nicely.
we're still friends and we have a lot of respect for each other :)
but the transition from someone whom i can call anytime for no reason at all to just a mere hibye friend is always hard and not something i can get used to.
we had lunch the last weekend and it was as though nothing had changed between us, conversation flowed and laughter was aplenty - no awkward silences.
he even playfully piped up: "i don't think i can ever find someone who's as retarded as you."
the difficult part was that i had to consciously remind myself to not touch his hand or kiss him on the cheek like i normally would because normal friends don't do that.
we were supposed to talk about what happened but seeing how carefree things were, i felt no reason at all to bring up whatever happened in the past because look at us, we are doing great as friends.
there was no need for justification of actions because it simply didn't matter anymore and i'm not about to mess this friendship up.
if you're wondering how i'm doing, i'm really fine :)
it i'm not i wouldn't be acknowledging the topic and writing this here.
it hurts but somethings, i need to let go and move on.
3.38am, bedtime.
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